Changes

"And these children that you spit on as they try to change their worlds are immune to your consultations.They're quite aware of what they're going through"

just in time

freedom at last to do what I very much like to do.

fear and loathing

hypnosis

I really want to try hypnosis, it's definitely something I would very much like to try before I die. It's questionable whether it is accurate or not but I think it would. I am not very good at relaxing or going into a certain state of serenity which is probably what you need to be hypnotised. But I still want to try it none the less.

I never go to the beach

what a nice day for a murder

ancient bruises

I dislike this very much so and trying to explain would really be

d-i-f-f-i-c-u-l-t

How'd you get to be happiness?

I very much like how friendly some folk are at bus stops. Just today a lady and a little boy shared their lollies with me. We sat and chatted about school and she asked me what the time was and how the buses work. It was rather nice. Strangers have been this nice all day, especially the shop lady in Billie and Rose today. She was telling me about the outrageous night she had and her friend in the shop let me hold her bubba. I am very happy about how this day turned out.

thoughts of change

what if

we were

to happen?

Dear gravity, I hate you

I have been writing about how much I dislike you gravity, I will never befriend you.

wild thing you make heart sing

"I can't say I am a big supporter of the raisin council"

"You don't like raisins?"

"Not really."

"Why?"

"They used to be fat and juicy and now they're twisted. They had their lives stolen. Well, they taste sweet, but really they're just humiliated grapes. I can't say I am a big supporter of the raisin council."

"Did you see those, those raisins on TV? The ones that sing and dance and stuff?"

"They scare me."

"Yeah me too"

"It's sick. The commercial people they make them sing and dance so people will eat them."

"It's a shame about raisins."

"Cannibals."

"Yeah. Do you like avocados?"

"They're a fruit you know."

"Ruthie, do you got any avocados?"

multicultural pain

mal pour mon cœur

ont för mitt hjärta

male per il mio cuore

κακό για την καρδιά μου

denn mein Herz weh

satuttaa sydämeni

vondt for mitt hjerte.

Je souhaite que mon monde avait une raison à la lumière des

ce serait bien

Emesophobia

I have been psychologically 'challenged' lately with trying to at least cope with my phobia. I have been in many a situations lately that has forced me to put myself into hiding. I am thinking that I am at the stages now where I may need some professional 'guidence'. I do recognise that my fear is highly irrational but compared to certain phobias it seems almost normal. I do respect other humans and their phobias, but seriously, some are ridiculous!

Arachibutyrophobia- fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of one's mouth

Bibliophobia- fear of books

Chaetophobia- fear of hair

Dendrophobia- fear of trees

Erytophibia- fear of the colour red
Francophobia- fear of the French
Geniophobia- fear of chins
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- fear of long words (ironic?)

Ichtyophobia- fear of fish
Mycrophobia- fear of small things
Nudophobia- fear of nudity

Peladophobia- fear of bald people

Textophobia- fear of certain fabrics
Xylophobia- fear of wooden objects

I do love this show

letter awareness

I wish I had a bird or preferably an owl to deliver my mail for me. None of this technology bullshit. As much as technology has evolved and created such efficiency it has very much taken the joy and true substance of writing letters. Now bird mail seems a little bit extreme and would have caused little problems here and there. But I assure you nothing is more true then letters. I have been writing quite a lot lately and I am not necessarily going to send all because most of them are for 'expressive' purpose.

Plain and simple, letters are quite a far bit nicer.

Woodley

I do love you, if it is not to hard would you like to come back and perform please?

bonjour, tu me manques

Je ne vous manques

Swammi Jeff

I have been riding so much lately and I really do like it. Although there is a few times where I genuinely thought that maybe I was going to die. That is really the worst that could happen. Or if I caused someone else to die. But this is not really what I wanted to talk about. My brother showed me this and I do think it is a little bit funny.

Somewhere else

I have not been present in the world almost all day

This is a classic movie

I have to say this is up there with one of my favourites

This is a little bit me

I feel a little bit like this

rock and roll enthusiast

my main man

Just an important list

Just an important list-

Mike Litoris

Offelia Knuts

Dick Hertz

Hugh Jazz

Allotta Fagina

Howie Feltersnatch

Mike Hawk

Pat McGroin

Seimore Butts

Amanda Hugankiss

Mike Rotch

Hugh G. Rection

moto-moto-moto-vation

Dear me, please do well in exams. I'm thinking that you may need some moto-moto-moto-vation so if you do not do as well as you can you'll have to go into major isolation. Are you okay with this?

Missed a significant section

It seems as though I had missed a significant section in my childhood and now finally I have claimed it back. Certainly many years later but I've claimed it! I have finally learnt how to ride a bike. On my own without any help and not for about five seconds before I foolishly fall off. As much as I feel accomplished, in the process of learning I did make a fool of myself many a time.

Seeing kids so so many years younger outside of there house riding there bikes while I was just getting started I imprudently thought 'I am older than these kids therefore I am more experienced' and completely forgot the fact that I haven't a clue about riding a bike. Also a while after that when I really started to get the hang of it I crashed into some netting outside of an old peoples home. Of course there were people sitting just out side the building and saw me crash which was very embarrassing but I just kept on going because I was too happy about this.

The fact is that I am now sixteen and it was about time that I learnt. Even though it differentiated myself from others I was not happy about not being able to when my pals could. I do feel a little bit like floating away right now because I am very happy, it feels a little strange.But I have a very certain feeling that I'll be riding nearly everyday until I am fucking swell at it.

Generous amounts of procrastination

My mother told me this morning that I had to get a lot of study done today but unfortunately for her I have done none. Even though it is only a couple of days before my first exam I am still in the pondering area of "what else can I do today instead of study?". I don't even think what I have done today is tolerable or necessary but I have done it anyway. I have watched birds squeeze through my garden gate, played keep-it-from-touching-the-ground with a polystyrene ball (which was most amusing and will probably play further on during the day even though it is quarter past two). Then really all I've done is stayed in bed all day, listen to Fanfarlo and draw (the drawings are not so good) but it is proof of my procrastination. This is not a hint for the people I am talking to, to leave me be and let me do my work because I will not. This will come back to bite me on my bottom.

constant confusion

I am thinking that maybe staying up so late wasn't a fantastic idea because now I'm in a state of constant confusion. It's starting to hurt too, I don't think my eyebrows can be turned up for very much longer. I am supposed to be studying today but honestly I do not think I'll get around to much at all, I think I may end up just being lazy around the house and drawing naked women. That is a little bit of an obsession of mine, I especially like those little photos where nudity is shown. I wouldn't really have to think about this too long but I'd be amongst a majority of people to say that they enjoy nudism.

Asleep

I am still awake...

staying up

As I presumed, exactly as I thought. I am now awake when it is most definitely morning. I have come to realise that staying up this late really isn't that good for my 'growing' brain. I'm mostly sure that I can not very much function when I stay up this late. I forgot that I had dinner tonight and started to worry because I thought I had not eaten. Also I walked into my door while I'm mostly sure it was shut. My words are escaping me now and I don't think that is a good thing considering I am on a blog. I have a feeling that when I finally pass out I may look like that.

Sharon Jones and The Dap-Kings

this woman has soul, simply I'm obsessed.

Sleep is not an option

I have a feeling that I'll be up for a very long time seeing as sleep doesn't seem so appealing right now. As comfy as my bed is and how warm my blankets really are, still I'm not so keen. But this is not the point of my post. I used to get very annoyed at these little security word captions or what ever they are but really they are just a little bit interesting and potentially humorous. Now I find I'm putting myself in the situation where I have to use them. Here is some I picked up along the way.

only the first

I haven't the idea of very many things right now. But generally the only thing I'm sure of right now is that I can not draw in anything other than a black art line pen. They really get the shit done.